Monday, September 15, 2008
I don't understand.
Why is it so hard to be myself? It feels like an ongoing battle, and it's driving me crazy. Many of my best friends graduated, and the others I pretty much never see at school, but the majority of them don't even go there. I just feel like I don't fit in there as well anymore. I'm not making a pity party for myself at all, it's just something that bugs me all the time & I just feel like letting it out a little. The only time I feel truly comfortable and myself is when I'm hanging out with friends or family outside of school. I've pretty much given up on a social life inside of it, because it's too hard. I'm just not upbeat and obnoxious all the time like everyone else, I wasn't made to be that way. The days I'm friendly, there seems to be no point to it. Other days, I just really don't care about anything but getting my work done and getting out of there. I'm seriously considering changing schools, I'd love to. But that wouldn't be at least until next year. So I'll just have to deal. I know I need to be more positive, it's something I'm going to work on.
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Oh Britt........you are speaking my very soul. I was (and sometimes still am) the same way. It is very hard to "fit" when everyone else around you just seems like they came from an entirely different place than you. Don't be discouraged, the Lord has you RIGHT now EXACTLY where HE intends you to be. "For I know the plans I have for you" declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
I love you Brittany!
Well I was thinking and I really feel like that too but a little different. Walking in the doors of college and not knowing anyone is kinda hard. Like trying to find some people to make friends with cause theres so many of them to talk to you dont know which ones are going to be real friends and you know what gets me through it all... Well God has a TON to do with it and my really close friends and thats why im glad i have you all.
I remember feeling that way when I was a teenager, but your family and church friends are probably going to be your more lasting relationships anyway. Christians are "in the world, but not of it." I will pray for God to bring you some Christian friends at school too. I love your blog!
Sweet Brit, it's because you and Maci are made to be best friends forever and if you got too close to all those "other" people, you and Maci would forget about each other! hehe. Seriously though, I know highschool is hard. As Christians, we are to be different, but it's not easy. We are also to find joy in those times too and that is what I am praying for you. I am praying that you will be a light to those around you and that God would use you in a mighty way to reach other people for His Kingdom. I'm praying that you would find your place in ministering to others who are so desperately looking for the hope that only He can give. I pray for people to come into your life who can encourage you also. If this world was perfect, we wouldn't desire Heaven. Sometimes we need the valleys in life to help us see the mountain tops. When you can't seem to be yourself, that is when you can let Jesus be Himself through you. Shine Sweet Brittany. I love you.
Hey Britt! Found your blog through your mom's! I TOTALLY relate to what you are saying in this post. Many, many days I feel like an alien in this world. But, you know what? God's Word tells us that is exactly what we are. Aliens. Because this is not our home. In a strange kind of way, knowing God says I'm an alien makes me feel better. Is that weird?
It's not easy following Christ. You hang in there! Be true to yourself and God. No one understands you and loves you more than Him!
Glad you're in the blogging world! Can't wait to hear more of your heart!
Britt....I am glad you do not fit in with most of the people at your school. I am glad you aren't obnoxious!!
Hey sweet Britt,
You have got to be one of the sweetest, kindest, most honest and humble girls I know. You have amazed me from the moment I met you.
I know that sometimes it is hard to fit in (I never really did either in high school) but you have Jesus (I didn't know Him then) to help you through the really rough times and it sounds like your friends and definately your family are such a solid foundation of help and funny-ness and support!
You just go on being different and letting Him shine through you.
Love ya Britt!
You are a sweet sweet girl...just like your Momma...have you read piece of cake on my blog?
Praying for you...
Help us today, God, to trust you
with our lives. Though we are
afraid and often worried about
what tomorrow will bring,
we know that you are with us.
— The Blessing Candles
Hey Britt, be yourself...that is the only you that YOU can be...and the only you that God made you to be (and it is a wonderful you). You can't be like someone else, because God has a plan and purpose for YOU as He wired YOU! If you were to mold to "fit in"...you couldn't fulfill His purpose for your life that only YOU can fulfill!! So, try to not believe Satan and his lies. I believe that the more Satan tries to discourage us as believers, the bigger the plan that God has for us!
Joshua 1:9...Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you...
Everyone at your age feels like you do. I know I did. Just remember God is with you always! You are a wonderful person, and if other kids don't see then it is their loss. We love you Britt.
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